Juicy juicy juicy...

Things have been going pretty good, as I type this I am sipping on a kale, celery, romaine and green apple juice. Feeling okay, not particularly motivated to work out today. However my parents have decided to take all the kids to the Wolf Lodge so I must be in bathing suit shape in less than a month. Eeks. It was pretty hard today when fixing Jake some black beans not to indulge as well but since I haven't had a completely 100 percent raw day I am aiming for that. Last night we indulged in some vodka and in my blissfully dumb state I ordered pizza. UGGHHH! This could account for the not wanting to work out today as I kinda feel icky. I am actually really interested in trying the Master Cleanse, for a couple reasons. 1) I do feel like I need more of a detox 2) I do have some weight to lose and 3.) It should really cut down on the food bill for a while. LOL

So far today's food intake

Breakfast: 1 organic cantaloupe. Positively the best thing ever, it was green and so damn good. I'm never buying a regular cantaloupe again.

Snack: 1 avocado

Lunch: Smoothie ( Banana, mango, cranberries, and some living green powder)

Snack: 1 small piece of raw cacao butter from Sunfood.

Early dinner: This green juice: kale, green apple, romaine and celery

Dinner: Oliver came home from work on dinner break craving veggie pho . So we had veggie pho. Delicious.

Weekend come and gone...

It was a very busy weekend, keeping up with the kids. While I ate fairly well, it was not what I had aimed for. I kept up with at least one fresh juice a day and smoothies. I made spaghetti Saturday night for the kids (whole wheat) and had a pretty small serving but I did add Parmesan cheese. Darn that wicked cheese. I'm completely in love with just barely sauteed bok choy. As we come to the end of our groceries, not much left after the weekend, options are getting slimmer. However I did create something absolutely fabulous. I've been continuing on with the working out, kudos to me. I wanted a raw meal that was BIG. So I grabbed whatever veggies were left over and put them together. I recommend trying this. Finely chop celery, rip up some romaine leaves, add a handful of sprouts and coat with a tablespoon of vegannaise. ASTOUNDING and satifying. I also added a few shakes of dried seaweed to flavor (not raw I know).

You know that feeling you get when you get home from grocery shopping and you see your bounty in the fridge and on the counter? I get this lovely sense of health. But I have to say I hate watching it dwindle. LOL. Especially when you have to wait to buy more.

Todays bounty:

Breakfast: Juice of 6 carrots and 2 oranges
Chewed on one celery 20 mins later. Worked out.

Snack: My celery mixture. I think I could eat a couple pounds of that.


More stuff: Woke up pretty energized, skin is still clear and even though the scale is not showing a decrease I feel slimmer. WOOHOO!

Minus 4 lbs..

Woke up this morning profoundly grateful I didn't order a pizza. It was a minor craving that pales in comparison to how I feel this morning. I feel well.. pretty. LOL. I have a super busy day today, getting the kids and Jakey is graduating from preschool. I need my energy. The rain is back which stinks. Weighed myself and I'm def down 4 lbs. My legs are definitely feeling strong from workout, I find walking is more enjoyable, like I'm grounding myself. I know that sounds weird, but I feel it. It is very eye opening the role of food on our health and emotions and how a craving can disregard what education you have. Like last night, I'm a little disappointed with adding a touch of Parmesan cheese since I'm trying to remain vegan right now. I know the evils of dairy YET in my emotional state of craving I HAD TO HAVE IT! But oh well, I'm moving on..


Breakfast: The juice of two oranges and two honey tangerines. Refreshing and zippy.

Searching......

This last almost 2 weeks has been very interesting and optimistic. I've been almost all raw, with the exceptions about 2 times indulging in comfort food. I've been working out like a maniac and LOVING IT! The hardest is always yo-yoing back and forth but when I get a good 3 days of regular working out, it becomes enjoyable and I'm noticing the difference in the way my body looks and feels. I really do want health for my family and I. Getting Oliver on the work out train is frustrating and he needs it more than me (Type 1 diabetic). I love when he says "when I get my BS under more control" however according to the literature I've read working out LOWERS BS. I do understand that you aren't supposed to work out with high BS as it will raise it higher but I know for certain he's had times when his blood sugar is good and he can work out!!! Ok enough grumping on that.

The biggest and bestest outcome thus far is my skin. I've ALWAYS had issues with my face and its very susceptible to stress and breakouts. Nope, even though there is daily stress due to this whole unemployment thing, my face is practically glowing. No breakouts, in fact my skin tone is evening out, I'm noticing a lessening in faint scars. My pores are shrinking and well it just feels heck a smooth. I've switched also to using almost all vegan body products and if I run out, I do without instead of using the chemical laden crap out there.

Another great byproduct would be weight loss. Yes, I'm going to say it I have gained nasty weight. I hit 130!!! On my small frame, NOT GOOD! I haven't been that weight since college, lol. I could not comfortably wear any jeans that I owned. I found one baggy size 7 (EEEEKKKKKK) and those were tight. Let me say EMBARRASSING! I'm right now jiggling back and forth between 126 and 128, sounds minor but doesn't feel minor. I know its water weight. But the jeans now fit comfortably.

And this is on a MOSTLY raw diet, I have been indulging in cooked tofu, beans and on one occasion stupid pizza.

I have finished listening to the China Study on audiocd by T. Colin Campbell.
Absolutely stunning. Just like Earthlings sprung me into vegetarianism, I am definitely falling into veganism with the hopes of continuing almost all raw.

I have been utilizing this site to get a feel for my caloric intake, although you have to pay to see the nutrient breakdown. Lame. I'm going to once again attempt to log my food intake since it will help with accountability. And I will continue to keep blogging in my own little world here.

Today's feast:

Breakfast: Juice of kale, celery, basil, green apple, red apple, and broccoli

Lunch: Oliver made yumminess. Stir fried tofu, portabello mushroom, onion, and baby bok choy. I do believe he used mushroom stir fried sauce which probably has your standard high fructose corn syrup. I ate approximately 1 1/2 cup. So a small serving. But it did the job.

I worked out for over an hour (2 separate, one cardio, one toning)

Then I had half a banana and some oolong tea.

Late lunch: Half a salad (romaine, kimchee, sprouts, lime juice) Took half an avocado and smooshed it with a lil vegannaise and himalayan salt. delish

Dinner: The rest of the salad, handful of Kaia sprouted sunflower seeds, and an orange

Snack: Handful of Kaia sprouted sunflower seeds

Then around 10ish I started to crave something warm and comforting. I actually starting craving a spinach alfredo think crust pizza.. BLECH!!!! I had to fight it really hard. I settled for half an avocado with a lil vegannaise and a TOUCH of parmesan cheese and I cut up some tofu strips to dip in this avo mix. It satisfied and I survived!!!! :)

I feel strong. I feel glowing. I think I will have a green juice again for dinner. I'm really tinkering with the idea of a juice feast but I don't want to set myself up for failure. I'm going to set this out in incremental goals.

Goal 1: Completely vegan for two weeks (starting today) so today til June 17
Goal 2: Completely raw for two weeks June 17-July 1
Goal 3: Evaluate and decide if juicing is desirable

here i go again.....

Yeah I'm going to forget the last two days because I can...


This morning:


Breakfast: Watermelon and 1 celery stalk with natural organic pb on it.

Monday Monday...

Breakfast: left over vegan potato salad. yum

Lunch: Veggie pho (does the soul good)

Sunday Sunday....

Fun Sunday morning, got the kids up early to go to my cousin's 10th birthday party. Made a breakfast smoothie for everyone.


Breakfast: Coconut milk, frozen banana, few frozen peach slices and lots of spinach

Snack at the party: 1 small bag of popcorn and about two gulps of orange soda

Lunch: Subway 6 inch seafood with loads of veggies

Snack: (cringe) 1 bag of TGIF mozzarella sticks chips (had a long drive to take kids home) and sparkling water

Dinner: Made vegan potato salad: red potato, vegannaise, celery, pickles, corn

Snack: This is TOTALLY Oliver's doing, he went to the store and brought home those small tostino's cheese pizza's. Ate 1 all by myself

Summer is motivating....

Alright posting my caloric intake to help me stay on track.

My goal is not to do 100% raw but as healthy as possible until I can comfortably transition into that



Breakfast: Green Apple, water ok and 2 bites of Hanna's pancakes smothered with peanut butter (all natural pb)

Lunch: 2 slices olive/tomato cheese pizza (was helping the parents move) half a can of pepsi which is disgusting!!!

Dinner: Spinach salad, red bell pepper, roma tomato, cilantro, kale, parsley, celery, himalayan salt (pinch), a dash of tahini, and a smooshed avocado and lots more water because I feel dehydrated.

Snack: orange, one big celery with natural pb

2nd dinner LOL: 2 cut up and roasted red potatoes in olive oil with vidalia onion and red bell pepper mmmmmmm mmmm yum

Loving Pandora....

The radio station that is, although I very much enjoyed Pandora in the movie Avatar, or the Anne Rice Novel, or the Greek mythological character.

The most stable thing in our diet lately is no meat (2 plus months free), which feels extremely natural. We're still working on the dairy, but I can not stand the sight of milk, and cheese is still a hard one to give up well and butter.

I've been working out regularly this last week and half and boy do I feel it. Gets those happy endorphins going which lately has been much needed. Good news on the home front, Oliver got a job and starts today. YAY.

Gonna attempt to post meals as to keep myself aware of what I shove in my face.

Keeping on keeping on..

Just a tad bit shy of one month since watching that film, and while I am not vegan, I am vegetarian. Haven't once had a bite of meat, actually makes me queasy smelling it and BOY those smells are pervasive with the amount of fast food chains.. just a wafting down the street. So I've managed to lose 1 pound but gain an excess of health issues while my goal at aiming at only one cooked meal a day has slipped to 2, 3, maybe 4 meals a day. I keep examining my patterns well and my family's patterns. Budget plays a HUGE factor. The more cooked (and unhealthy) I eat, the more depressed, the more I crave greasy nasty comfort food to fill that void. And its a downward spiral, enraged by Oliver's ups and downs with his blood sugar. Not to mention now the struggle with Jacob's father over vegetarianism which seems to be more of an issue to him than me wanting Jake to eat high raw. It's like he and my parents are shoving meat at him to spite me. Its so very frustrating and considering the fact that NONE of us has health insurance anymore, we should be uber conscious of our health. I keep thinking if I could just be more creative with raw...... if I could just squeeze more money out of the budget.... if I could just be less stressed and depressed about life... if if if if.. the list goes on. I feel like I'm going to bust. I feel as if the whole world (ok exaggeration!!!) depends on me providing. And I want so many things for my family, health and happiness. But it is very tiring and I want to hide under a rock.